Struggles with consistency have been a part of my life for as long as I can remember. Whether it’s writing, building habits, or staying on track with personal goals, consistency has always been a challenge for me.
It’s been quite a while since I last published anything here. When I first launched this blog, I had big ambitions—daily posts, then weekly updates. But that vision slowly morphed into monthly musings, and now here I am, writing again after almost four or five months of silence.
One truth I’ve come to accept about myself is that I struggle with consistency—and not just when it comes to blogging. It shows up in many aspects of my life: work, routines, hobbies, and even personal projects that I care about deeply.
Recognizing the Struggles with Consistency
It’s easy to start something when motivation is high. But staying consistent when life gets overwhelming? That’s a whole different game. Sometimes it’s the chaos of daily life, sometimes it’s the lack of motivation. Other times, it’s the illusion of needing the “perfect time” to act.
I tend to overthink. I overplan. I try to map out the perfect workflow. Ironically, that paralyzes me further, and I end up doing nothing. I’ve tried everything—watching YouTube tutorials, setting up Notion boards, blocking out calendar slots. But the truth is, I haven’t found a system that sticks.
Life Changes and Mental Backlogs
Last month, I took my first trip outside of Nepal. It was something I had been looking forward to for years. The experience was beautiful, meaningful, even life-changing in some ways. I told myself I’d write about it, capture that energy, share what I felt and learned. But even now, that story lives only in my head. Another idea waiting in the backlog. Another victim of my struggles with consistency.
On top of that, I recently moved to a new place. Settling down hasn’t been easy—mentally, emotionally, or logistically. It’s disrupted my rhythm even more. These little transitions pile up, and before you know it, you’re months behind on the things you once felt so driven to do.
Sattva, Uncertainty, and Creative Drift
Even with Sattva, the mental health platform I’m building, I’ve been drifting a bit. I’m torn between different paths—should we scale as a SaaS? Focus on telehealth first? Build a community? I know these are normal questions for any startup founder, but without consistency in execution, even the best ideas get stuck.
I find myself in loops—thinking, brainstorming, half-starting—without committing to clear decisions. And once again, that brings me back to the core issue: my struggles with consistency.
Writing as a Way Back
It’s midnight as I write this. The weekend has just started, and my mind feels heavy with scattered thoughts and unrealized ideas. So I’m here, writing—not just to update the blog, but to clear the mental clutter. Maybe that’s all I need right now. Not a master plan. Not the perfect content calendar. Just one honest post. One small win.
Maybe next week I’ll write about that trip. Or a new habit I’ve picked up. Or even a book that moved me. Whatever it is, I hope to show up—consistently, imperfectly, but wholeheartedly. The truth is, consistency isn’t about perfection. It’s about continuing to show up, even when the journey feels unclear.
Sometimes, I feel like I procrastinate a lot. Is it due to laziness? Is it because I want everything to be 100% perfect? What is it? Procrastination has been a constant companion in my life—whether it’s work, study, or even simple actions. It’s something I’ve been grappling with for a very long time, and it still challenges me every day.
Because in the end, showing up is the first step toward overcoming my struggles with consistency.
Thanks for reading.
— Nuraj
